Tuesday, November 25, 2008

I am ever so blessed to have friends here. Even though i can't just talk to them all the time, i know that they are there for me.. I love getting to know them and being able to praise the Lord along with them. So far- the closest friend i have here is Hans.. mainly because i am able to spend more time with him than with the others. But i don't get to talk to him a whole lot- because of school. I have 2 very close friends from online.. Eric and Stephen. I am ever so blessed with both of them. I enjoy talking with them both each day and getting to know them more and more.

So in my Bible reading {of Hebrews} I came to the verses {11-12} that says "And every prist standest daily ministering and offering oftentimes the same sacrifices, which can never take away sins: But this man, after he had offered one sacrifice for sins for ever, sat down on the right hand of God:" This is saying that we are all still standing because we are not done with our job {telling others about Christ} and we can't sit down till we are done, and honestly- we are not done nor will be anytime soon unless Christ comes or we die. But Christ's job is done when He took upon Himself our sins and paid the debt. When He said "It is finished" He meant it--- IT IS INDEED FINISHED!! So He sits down to rest- just like God rested the 7th day of creation. {in pic is Tom Ferrell, another good preacher i like!!.. I remember how he broke the prodium one year at camp--- but thats another story..}

In the book that i am reading- it got talking about how Christ brings us to our desires- Just like he did with the blind man that He healed. Or like the rich young ruler who didn't want to give up his riches. He has them see where their desires are at before He can work on them- or not. He brings desires to us and even gives us new ones. The desires that we do have- if it can be focus on Him, then it can be used of good {like the desire to be married.. He doesn't let us not have that desire- but if it's focus on Him, then the marriage that we do have will be a blessed one}.

So i am about done with the 3rd chapter of that book, and seem to be interested it in and writing tons of notes in it {which means its a good book to like read again later on with my notes}. A few more books came in the mail today- am excited to start reading a few of them..but will wait a lil whle before i do. {this way, i am not reading 10 books at once and getting confuzzled with whats being said}.

So i've been researching about Mennenites... and each site i go to talks about coverings... yet whatever photos they share, noone is wearing a covering. Just makes me wonder if they live what they preach- like really!! I know that Eric was telling me how he is kinda against girls wearing pants {and has Scripture to back him up on it}- yet i notice that the pics on all these sites are girls wearing pants. But over all- it seems like Mennonites believe alot of things we do but mainly Saved by Grace and not by works. Which is indeed important!! I enjoy learning about the Mennonites-- just wish they would give more information out for someone who doesn't know much about them.. 0-wells. life goes on. If i knew what to ask- i'd ask Eric, but i'm not sure what to ask.

well- guess thats my life for now!! Friends and reading... Oh yeah- Kids... Kids here are alright.. the parents are wanting them to be in my apartment or in the toy room more.. so i have been doing that... trying to keep Jameson away from buttons and away from pulling things off my shelf is a "fun" task. other than that- he is normally good and loves to play with toys-or open and close doors or just hit a toy into something making a banging noise {grrrs.. i mean.. Ahhh sweet sound}.. Delaney is usually good- but does have her cranky moments.. She just needs to learn how to ask better. she knows how to- but doesn't. I don't always give her what she wants because of how she asks me and i let her know that too. She knows better- and will learn that she can't always have what she wants and when she wants it.

Will find out if i am having a boy or a girl on Kaytie's b-day. :D Am excited to see the Ultrasound-would love to have a friend or two see that too... I love sharing my joy with others and would love to share this joy with those around me. I am feeling the baby kicking more and more now.. i like it- strange ah?. My belly is starting to be round like a preg lady {wait--- i am preg.. DUHH!!}. and soon i shall be showing- i just know it. I am alil scared abou that--because i will be fat.. yet i know that it won't be forever... so i am ok with it... I guess i can wait till after i am preg to try to lose the weight that i wanted to lose. {another 20-30 lbs and that'll be it}. Would love to be about 120-130 instaed of 140-150... but we will see when the time comes that this lil one comes out and the weight i gain from it is gone...

k.. that is it for now- that i can't think of any else right now!! Till next post- Later!!

Monday, November 24, 2008

I had A wonderous 23th birthday.{in pic are Kayla and Sean}.. So my family either texted me or called me to say happy birthday. It was nice to hear from them. I made sure that everything was cleaned before i left {although it was already clean}. I was very excited to be spending the day with people. Then i went off to the bowling isle- had the directions in my hand. I happen to have passed the street to turn on, soi turned around as Hans was calling me. He said "Hey Birthday girl, you are late for your own party!...." yeah- but that's ok, it's my party and i can be late if i want to.. besides, it shows that people care if they are willing to wait {hahahaha, just made that up!!}. So i saw the bowling place and went to go park- but there were no parking spot, so i went to look for a good place to park... turned around and went to the store across the street and parked there. They were excited to see me come in, and looked like they couldn't wait to lose {so i pretend that i was good}.

{in pic is Andrew with a Gutter ball, and Avery with his normal look at Hans-jk..but gotta love that look} They gave me hugs and lots of smiles and a few cards. Am glad that they didn't go all out and buy things for me. I didn't want anything really. But two of them gave me gift cards- 1 for anywhere and 1 for the Waffle house {guess it's a must go place or else i haven't lived kinda place-haha}. So that means i haven't lived yet-just a dead body walking around {lol}. 1st game i bowled a 90 {the only strike i got in that game was due to a granny shot that i did just for the fun of it}. It was fun and funny seeing the guys try to out beat each other. Sean was very good and so was Avery. Hans is.........ok.....jk, he was very good too. 2nd game i got a 133 {got a turkey- meaning 3 strikes in a row... yays}.. It was tons of fun.

Then i invited them over to my place for cake and whatever. So they all fellowed me to the place. Delaney was ever so shy {haha, which is normal when you 1st meet her.. but she easily warm up.. but seem to want to stay away from us when we were in my apartment.}. Hiedi {dog} was barking like crazzie.. guess she did that the whole time {feel bad for the Daron and Jenice to have to put up with that}. {In pic is Dan- He came in late, but still bowled with us and hanged out with us. He was the one who taught us how to play "Garbage Man"--yeah, Dan is a crazzie one!!}

So we came back to the place and talked a while. then Daron and Jenice came in with cupcakes in the shape of 23. Jenice said "there are 23 cupcakes here, but you can only make 21 wishes because 2 candles went out.." haha. Dan asked if he could have one and i said yeah... but he waited before he asked again. as soon as Dan had one.. Hans yelled at him- but i said that it was ok.. so Hans said "oh good, because i wanted one." LOL.

Oh-As soon as they were in my apartment, they were all shocked. They loved the view, the size, and the couch. They even loved Delaney's horse- haha. {Hans here is wondering if he should take the horse to his room} So we all ended up playing this card game called "Garbage Man"... It's a confusing game to explain, but it was fun. Played that game over and over and just had fun. I was the "President" 4 times in a row-YAYS!! Oh yeah, Jenice came down with 2 gifts and a card. I opened the gifts- it was a 2 in 1 paper cutter {SWEET!!! I know i'll use that alot for my scrapbooking, or even for projects} And the other one is a pen set- 84 colorful pens... so if you ever need a colorful pen, you can come to me. :D I have from yellow to black, from blue to pink, from brown to green and from orange to any other color you can think of..

Then we played basketball and volleyball at the rec-center. That was fun.. :D Kayla was covering me on Basketball and just wouldn't leave me alone- so i kept poking her. hahaha. just having fun! {In pic is Avery with his sister-in-law Kayla, Andrew and Sean. Hans is in the background Maybe staring at the cupcakes or talking to Dan}

So that was my b-day. I wouldn't want to change it for anything, because i was able to spend time with friends and just have a great time with everyone and i am sure that they had a great time too. :D It's not every day that the b-day girl throws herself a party.. haha

In my Bible reading- i am just amazed each time at how much He truely loves us. And how much He put Himself in our shoes and lived like we did. He let the temptation come- but being that He was and is perfect, He didn't do them. But He knows what we go through when we are tempted. It's just amazing!! I praise Him each day for what He has done for us, and for giving us so much. We don't deserve anything, and yet He continues to give us things and gie us strength to make it through a day or a week. Each trail we go through, He is there. I am ever so blessed to know Him as my Savior!!

I am blessed with my friends- each one of them is a blessing to me. From my freinds from college to the ones i made since i've been here. I can't ask for better freinds than what i have. and i have the greatest friend of all time- Christ!! :D

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

I am ever so blessed to know that we cannot lose our Salvation- no matter what we do. He forgave us and continues to forgive us when we repent and go to Him.

There still is light- and He is the Light of the World. He lights my pathway and maketh a way for me through trails {not to go through it but to go through it with our minds set on Him}.
I am beginning to see that a true relationship after God's own heart has to be with both people working together to Honour Him and to give Him all the glory. How can one person be on fire for God and the other not and still call it a godly relationship? There just isn't any way that could be. Both people need to encourage one another and by doing that they need to be in His Word 1st and to be seeking after Him 1st. Then they can encourage their friend or mate. It helps out loads when they can also encourage you too.

The past few days i got talking to this guy name Stephen. It's been ever so encouraging to be ble to encourage him and have him also encourage me too. His testimony is just amazing. He was in the Navy when this Christian was talking about Christ. Noone wanted to listen to him, but Stephen did and was interested in what he was saying. So the guy gave him a Bible to read. Stephen read in the back one day of how to give the Gospel to someone.. and as He was reading, he realized that He needed Christ in his own heart 1st. So he came to know the Lord as his Savior and have been changing his life around ever so much. There is more to it than just that- but i thought that this is just amazing and just know that there will be many who will see Christ through him and want to know Christ. It's only been a few days that Stephen and I talked- and somehow i know that this is going to be a great friendship. He is very sweet and just want to know more about the Lord.
Since moving here to Ak, i've been able to start some very wonderful friendship with people who loves the Lord and am seeing that i need to be a friend who loves the Lord too. All my relationships i have now with my friends are God-centered. I am finding that i enjoy hearing what the Lord is working on their hearts about. Hans and I got talking last night, and it was just ever so encouraging to just praise the Lord together. I told him what i was learning and in return he started telling me what he was getting out of the Bible. I wasn't expecting it at all-but was very glad that he did..made me realized how encouraging it is to hear other testimonies of what the Lord is doing. I am ever so thankful for the friends i am making here and just praise the Lord each day for them.

I know that Saturday will be ever so wonderful..just having a good time, yet praising the Lord together. I think that i might just ask someone to give a blessing before i even blow out the candles. This way- we are giving all the glory to Him and letting Him know that He is indeed invited to the party. Yays!! I do hope that the people are not planning on giving me much gifts.. the only gift i want is for them to show up and just have a great time. That is way better than anything they could ever give me.
I started reading a book called "The Journey of Desire" so far it's alright.. in the middle of the 1st chapter the arthur wrote, "Even our troubles and out heartbreaks tell us something about our true destiny." So i had written down, "How we deal with troubles and heartbreaks shows other where our desire lie...may it be on ourself or on God. I pray that it'll just and only be on God-then we can face those hard times ever so much better than if we don't." Which is ever so true- because if we are not desiring to go to Him, then we are only desiring to do what our sin bids us to do.. In the end of the 1st chapter, he goes on to say "To desire something and not to have it-is this not the source of nearly all our pain and sorrow?" I wrote, "we can have a desire to love someone and to be loved back by them.. then when we find out that it's not meant to be, we are ever so heartbroken. we still have that desire to love someone and to be loved, just the heartbrokeness may take a while to heal a bit before we can truly love another. But sometimes giong through the pain and sorrow and heartbreaks we learn new things and grow from it. We end up with a new desire to get out of the pain or sorrow, and we will after we deal with it and give it all over to Christ." If we give it to Christ, then a new desire will be placed in our hearts- we will want to learn more about Him and just receive our love from Him.. His love is greater than anything or more than all the love there is to offer.
Well.. this will be it for now- May you have a blessed day!!
In Hebrews, I have been chellenged to stand firm in Him. Why would i want to go elsewhere? He is the reason i live, the only One who can really be there for me. he made Himself lower than the angels just to pay the debt that i could never pay for anyone-not even myself. He is the same today, yesterday, and forever-why would i want to go to a "god" that isn't the same but changes?

O'may i not be hardening my heart as i am tempted but to be open and to go to Him when i am tempted. If we hear His voice- O'may we reply "Yes Master, thy servant heareth!" and may we do what He tells us-even if we don't want to go to that place {like Jonah}. If we don't believe the truth that is given us, then how will we believe Christ?? We need to search the Word-and see if the preacher is indeed telling the truth of the bible. May we continue to work till He comes. Serving Him shouldn't be just a job, but be a motive to do our best always and to strive to be better.

I am really seeing how much communication means a whole lot.. Why won't someone talk things out? It only destroys relationships. Mom and Dad didnt' talk to each other much and because of it they suffereed alot. I am sure they could've been much more blessed in their relationship had they talked things through instead of argueing or ignoring each other.

I am indeed finding it worth w hile to get into God's Word.. The more i read the more i want to tell others and the more i tell others the more i want to read the bible. I just long to have someone to be able to tell me what they are getting out of the Bible too. Someone who wants to listen to me and be encouraged yet tell me too so that i may be encouraged also.

I am slowly starting to open up more to my friends and showiong off this new me that i am today. I got talking to his girl name Jessica and i realized how mature i have become already-though i do still need to grow.. but at least this is a great start. O'may i continue to grow in Him and be more mature in my walk with Him. I am not only all about being silly or feeling alone- i am now all about serving God and knowing that I'm not alone-ever-.

I am excited to see where God is leading me, and to see how He is going to lead me there. And He will lead me all the way as long as I am willing to give Him control each step of the way.

Been feeling the need to talk to people- so i've decided to write in my journal alot and also look for people who are willing to listen to me and to encourage me. I am ever so thankful that i am starting to get a bit closer to the friends i've made here.. but i do feel kinda out of place with them all being in school and knowing each other very well. It's amazing how the Lord is working in my heart and i just want to share it with others. i guess this is one of the new desires He has placed in my heart. But i guess writing in my blog alot from now on may help me slow down on wanting to just talk to people- Because most of them are just mega busy with school and work and other things. I do not like bothering people-so i try to find ways not to bother them too much.

Well... thats it for now- I am sure that this isn't the end of this new journey that i am taking. A journey to serve God more and to let Him have control of my life Always!!

Friday, November 07, 2008

The weather here today has been a huge encouragement to me..as if God is saying- "Look at me!" There was a beautiful sunrise this morning {cloudy as can be, but a section showing off the sun's ray and brightens te land and the mountians in the distance.} then i went to take Hiedi {dog} outside and saw my fav. kinda of clouds-as if God was saying "Dayna, I care about you and know you. I want you to be happy and you will as long as I am in control!" that just made my want to read the Bible more-and so i finished John...and was amazed at how much i was reminded of Jesus's death for me {and everyone}. I was encouraged to remember Christ and what he went through. I remember Doctrine {and theology} calss and all that we talked about on this {Christ's death}. to know that i don't have to go through that- and that it's all paid and He gave me much more...it just does wonders to me.

As i was playing with Delaney with barbies {mainly just holding the thing as we watched Enchanted for the millioneth time}- I looked outside and saw a rainbow. God promised not to flood the world again. But when i saw this rainbow {5th one since i've been here} I was reminded of how much he loves me-as if he was saying "remember me-for I have loved you first! I bring the colors into your life as well as brightening your life!"

Then i had to take Hedi out again and was amazed at how blue the sky was and filled with only my fav. clouds..it took my breath away-and i was all in smiles as i was looking at it. As much as i am in love with someone, i haven't lost my breath like i have today. Amazing! Someone to me is indeed amazing too--but that is all in God's timing. All i can do is wait and try to give Him {God} everything-even my love for this someone.

I recently regiven my life to the Lord- and have only been amazed at how He is already working in my life. I fell in love with someone over the past few weeks- something came up and now my heart is broken. I am ever so confused and yet i just want to talk things out and work it out with this guy... but it seems like he just wants time to himself only. It pains me ever so to not be able to talk things out with him and just get our focus onto God... but i cannot force him to talk to me- he needs to talk to me when he is ready to talk.. and i pray that we can at least still be friends--no matter how much i do care for him.

I was aching to just to talk to someone and a random guy Imed me earlier today on a site i was on.. and was only amazed at how much our conversation was on God more than anything else. It was amazing and i long to have more conversations like that with people--for surely with this certian someone that i care deeply about. This random guy that i had talked to had mentioned in his profile that he has a tender heart... and it got me thinking- what a nifty way of saying that he wears his heart on his sleeves. :D

I am also wanting to learn how to mature better. I am determined to become a better woman after God's own heart. I asked Jayme to send me my copy of the book "A Woman After God's Own heart".. I have tons of notes in there that i know will encourage me and help me out now. I am seeing that i am growing a lot since i came here.. and meeting this someone only made me a better woman of God than i was before. I only pray that i was of some help to him too and had encouraged him to continue to fellow God more. To me- from the day i met him and till now, i see that he has indeed grown into a better man.

So- this post is indeed very personal... but i just wanted to get it out and just come back to it someday later and be encouraged that i had done the right thing- or something.

O--if you are reading this... and you have any suggestions or advise as to how i can better mature myself in many areas {i am not sure of them all.. was only commented from someone that it seemed like i was immature... so now i am determined to be better}.. then please do tell me... I would love to hear them. Just tell me how it is.. don't just sugar coat it at all...